Day 2 of 30 Days of Truth is Something I Love About Myself…
I firmly believe that people don’t change. They can, however, grow. I am finally, finally growing up and I absolutely love that about myself.
I will always be a comfort seeker who needs more sleep than most people. I will always be an introvert masquerading as an extrovert. I will always have an addictive personality, struggle with depression and anxiety and plenty of issues from my past.
I’m getting up whenever the baby needs me AND getting work done as well. I’m putting off the comfort and the sleep so that I can accomplish my goals and grow my business. I’m taking the time alone in the quiet that I need in as healthy a way as I can, instead of waiting until I’m completely overwhelmed and then crawling into myself for days or weeks. When I started to feel sick I got help. I work my program every day and I don’t use my PPD/A as an excuse to do less. I AM STILL NOT SMOKING. While I have no idea if I’ll be able to say that tomorrow, I’m pretty damn excited that I can say it today.
A lot of my growth comes from becoming a mother. My life is no longer about taking care of myself, but about taking care of myself so that I can take care of my family.
Here’s the best part though – a lot of my growth began BEFORE I got pregnant. The reason I was able to find Dork Dad? The reason I was able to do my part to keep us together through the pregnancy? The reason I’ve been able to be a good mom (yes, you are a good mom dammit!)? I had to start growing up first. I had to start defining what I wanted in my life and what I was willing to do to get it. Then I had to take action. I didn’t lie to myself about the first or second things (growth!) and I actually got up off my ass and started to work (more growth!).
Everything isn’t perfect. In fact on most days things pretty much suck. But every day I get up and try. Every day I grow a little bit more into the woman I was meant to be. I love that about me.
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