This will be short… To all of my X loves I just want to say, “Thank you.”
Thank you for being an asshole. Thank you for putting up with me when I was an asshole. Thank you for dumping me, scaring me, scarring me, not believing me, not believing in me, dealing with my craziness, being hurt by me and being left by me. I am truly sorry for any pain that I caused you. I am truly grateful for the pain that you caused me.
If it hadn’t taken me exactly as long as it did to start getting over you and getting my shit together I may have met Dork Dad too early. I may have still been a mess and he wouldn’t have been interested. If it had taken me less time I may have healed earlier, found someone else and not been interested in him.
Things had to work out exactly as they did for me to be sitting in my living room eating cereal and drinking coffee on the morning after Valentine’s Day while the love of my life snores in our bedroom and the beat of our hearts plays with his grandmother across town. This fleeting sense of absolute peace – this knowing that everything is exactly as it should be and that I am completely loved by the ones I love – this is a gift that each of you gave to me by not staying. These are the men I was always supposed to have in my life. Thank you for making room for them.