It’s hard to believe that this website was “born” just one year ago. I went live on my birthday as a present to myself. Starting this business has been the ultimate act of self-care, the greatest gift that I could give to myself. I will forever be grateful to my family for their belief in […]
Our Day of Grace
Events conspired. They seem to like nothing more than to conspire lately, and they did so again here. We are all alone, my Little Monster and I – at least until Sunday. We both woke up from our afternoon naps a little groggy and clingy. The day is rainy and grey, just starting to go […]
I Think I’m Ready – Having a Baby After Maternal Mental Illness
Fingers are crossed. We have hope. We have a plan. When I first found out I was pregnant I thought of it as a second chance. Then I thought of all the things that could go wrong. I’ve been bouncing back and forth between those feelings for the last 8 months. To friends and […]
What I Think I Know
Little Miss Peanut is scheduled to arrive on November 2, 2015. So – we know that she won’t actually arrive that day, but that’s pretty much all I can say that I know. Unlike my first pregnancy I am now secure in the knowledge that I know pretty much nothing. I have lived more and […]
Draft Dodging the Mom Wars
Before I had a baby I was, like most childless people, the perfect parent. The list of things I would always do and never do was long, detailed and set in stone. Then Andrew arrived and with him came Postpartum Depression and Anxiety. That potent combination of the three of us – me, my baby […]
Warrior Mom Conference Part 1
I can’t separate the two. I can’t just be a woman or just be Black. I can’t just be a mom or just be a woman with a mental illness. I can’t be ‘just’ anything. I am a Black mother with a mental illness. Almost every day I feel alone. I feel like a freak. […]
Day One- The Little Monster Goes To School
I took the Little Monster to Montessori this morning. I signed him in and we walked around to the playground gate. Kiddos, this place is like toddler HEAVEN. Still, he lingered at the gate and tried to pull me in with him. I knelt down and gave him a hug and a kiss and asked […]
Turn Around Time
I learned something from a Facebook fight last week. I know, that seems impossible, but it’s true. My friend Jane was having a hard time with an issue and she posted a question. She was looking for advice. I answered her and so did another friend of ours. She read what we wrote and she […]
Worrying About Worry
I went to the gym yesterday. On purpose. I really wish you all could hear the MASSIVE sigh that I sighed after writing those two sentences. So I met with a 12 year old named Nate who took me through an assessment and has promised to kick my ass and have me feeling stronger with […]
Getting Ready
For many women it starts before they even know they’re pregnant. I had baby names picked out when I was five. I practiced changing diapers, feeding, rocking and putting my ‘baby’ to bed. I was ready for sleepless nights and poop everywhere. I got so many things from other moms at my baby shower. It was […]